The Way I Used to Be by Amber Smith kind of drove me nuts. At the beginning, this story reminded me of Speak (which I really enjoyed), but it progressed for a longer time period with different reactions.

Eden is raped in her own bed by her brother’s best friend. He threatens to kill her if she tells anyone. This begins an almost four year aftermath of trauma.

Each year, Eden becomes a bit harder. She turns away a caring boyfriend and friends, and is full of animosity toward her parents and brother. She turns to drinking and meaningless sex as a coping strategy.

Spoiler- It isn’t until another girl is victimized that Eden finally realizes that she needs to break her silence. I spent the entire book waiting for her to say something so that she could begin properly coping and healing. And of course, waiting for justice against the perpetrator.